Friday - Light A Light

I came across this desktop calendar today,

(available for download here)

"Light a light, 

light a light for me,

bring me back home again" - Janis Ian

So appropriate for the month of December.  Up until now, this deployment has been pretty smooth for me.  Yes, there have been some bumps in the road, like say, changing the date and then not changing the date, feeling overwhelmed and alone, and consequently changing the venue.  But here I am today, writing about it from the other side.  


The hard part is now.  When I feel like all I want to do is see his face.  What I wouldn't give to have him home for Christmas this year.  Underneath all the holiday madness; the holiday parties, the shopping, and trimming the tree.  I'm wound up with anxiety.  Stuck between the urge to scream and go home and get into a comfy pair of sweats.  Guess that's just me feeling powerless in this mess.  


And in the end, I know I should be easy on myself.  This is my first time, and there's no wrong way to feel.  And if this is the hardest time so far, then there's hope that come January 2nd, it will go back to being a day-to-day experience.  


So, I'm taking the time to hang out with friends this weekend and try to push through December. 


Here's the song above that the quote above is pulled from.  Enjoy!     








Happy Friday! And have a great weekend!