Everybody Knows I'm A Mother-Flippin' Monster

Help! 

I'm turning into a little monster.

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No, not that kind of little monster.  I'm more like this little monster:

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I'm anxious, jumpy, quick to anger, impatient, and emotional.  I'm a ball of nerves.  A creature compared to the regular ole me.  Not so fun to be around. 

And I've had a lot of people tell me that.  It hurts a lot and I wish they'd understand that right now I'm in crunch time.  Right now, it might not be okay to be a little monster but it's probably normal. 

The stress of the wedding and the move down south has gotten the better of me. I'm up against a time crunch.  And not just a time crunch, there is a whole lot of emotion that I don't think people really understand.  In practically no time, everything about my life is going to change.  But for now, nothing has.  

I still work really long hours.  I'm still tired when I get home.  I still push myself to exercise daily.  I still have a list of things to do, and I don't want to cut things out of the list because "I work too much and I'm tired." NO WAY.  And the thing I've had no time to really think about is how I feel about moving away from everything and everyone I know. I'm sure that reality will hit me the morning I awake in my new home.

So a creature I am.  Until the wedding.  I'm trying to be nicer, trying to be more patient. Trying not to flip out on people who are slightly rude and insensitive.  I'm trying. 

Just have faith, World, that I'm not changed forever.  This is one little monster that will go back to normal when the sun rises on the morning after the wedding.  At least, that's according to legend. 

Has the stress of your wedding gotten the best of you?  Have you acted like a "little monster" from time to time? 

*Ps-- Triple double bonus points if you recognize the title!

A PSA for all Those Who Fear 'PDE'

And what's a PDE, you say?  

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Move over PDA, it's time to share the spotlight because we're talking about a public display of emotion.  (And can someone tell me where I can find a pair of those sweet onion goggles?)


If I had to disclose my top three wedding related fears #2 would be my fear of crying uncontrollably all day because I am a big time crier.  Big time.  (Ok top three?  1. The aisle 2. Crying uncontrollably all day 3. Showing up nekkid)

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I cry when I get mad*.  I cry when I am happy.  I cry when I'm so happy that I start laughing and crying.  I cry when I am surprised and when I'm embarrassed.  I cry when I'm super stressed out. I well up when I see an especially touching commercial (like hello ASPCA and Pampers?).  I cry when I see other people cry.  And I well up when I think about our wedding day.  


I am a big fat cry baby.  

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My public displays of emotion have haunted me for my entire life.  As I child, I was tormented because I was the cry baby of the group.  Always was.  As I got older, I got a better handle on the waterworks but over the past year or so they've returned with a vengeance. 


You may be reading this thinking, "what's the big deal? Plenty of people cry at their weddings."  And you're right.  But not everyone is like me.  I'm not just scared of crying as I walk down the aisle, and I'm not scared of my ugly cry face (it's ugly, but it comes with the territory)--I'm scared of crying off and on for the entire DAY in front of all those people, especially when there's a good chunk of them that I don't know all that well.

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Well, after some thought and some conversation with my friends I've come to the conclusion that no matter how scared I am to cry uncontrollably at my wedding--it's OK to bawl.  It's fine.  And any fear I have is mostly of people judging me to be a little unhinged or something.  And you know what?  Anyone that would judge a person for crying on their wedding day is wrong.  Just plain wrong.  And I think that every person we're asking to join in our special day will get it.  A wedding is an emotional event, ours will be no different!  SO GO AHEAD AND CRY IT OUT!

You can try not to ruin your makeup.  But if you're a crier, like me, you'll probably need to stash a bag of touch up cosmetics somewhere in your dress, and have your bridesmaids stocked up on Kleenex.  Just like me.  

So are you a crier?  Did you cry on your wedding day? 

* Nothing is worse than getting so mad at someone that you think you need to scream or tell them off, and then before you do, a hot tear just starts to roll down your cheek.  It totally kills the effect of, "I'm mad at you right now, and I'm not intimidated by you at all."